i texted my ex (and my life changed)

by | Aug 6, 2025 | Uncategorized | 0 comments

This isn’t clickbait lol.

I’m literally writing this walking on a treadmill in Vietnam, waiting for my jiu jitsu and yoga class to start.

It’s been a hot minute, so I thought I’d catch you up on what’s been happening — behind the scenes, in my business, and in my head… including why I texted my ex.

A lot has changed since my last email

But first, business updates 🙂

You’ll get a separate email about these things.

Anyways on the life updates 👇

1. I texted my ex 💬

I was sitting in a sauna, clenching my butthole (don’t ask), and I sent this big block of text to my ex 📲

…okay I didn’t even expect this.

I was reading Letting Go by David Hawkins and suddenly realized how much stuff I had been holding in.

Catching up with old friends made it even more clear — I had pushed down so much from that time in my life — getting fired, my dad passing, taking sales calls alone in my small ass LA apartment.

My ex was one of the only people who saw me at my lowest. Not the “business guy” or the YouTuber — just a regular guy trying not to fall apart.

And since we broke up, I was carrying guilt for years.

For not being able to commit.

For not appreciating someone who helped me when I really needed it.

Anyway, this is what she said back 📲

Ngl — I felt way better afterward because now she knew.

But I also felt kinda sad.

It wasn’t some dramatic Usher music video — crying in the rain — or Jason the Ween blasting Cigarettes After Sex after failing to rizz up an ABG.

But I felt sad because that part of my life was really over.

I think deep down, I was still holding on to hope that we could work things out.

I know… sounds crazy. It’s been four years LOL.

And for the first time, I could let it go.

What I didn’t expect was how much that one text would change things.

Now a few weeks have passed, I feel different.

And I’m finally open to dating again.

Not because I’m lonely. Not because I need to fill a void or a hole (that sounds so wrong lol).

But because I’m actually ready.

Lately, I’ve been walking around Saigon looking like an ABB from Seaside or an Asian bouncer — and somehow meeting amazing women at coffee shops, hip hop clubs, and even airports.

Gotta start the family arc soon 😛

2. I started Hard 75 (and failed multiple times) 🏋️‍♀️

It was 2 AM.

I was shirtless, eating pho, fresh off the “hub,” doomscrolling IG, and feeling like trash. That’s when I realized… I f*cked up my Hard 75 streak… again.

And honestly, that moment sums up a lot.

Because the biggest thing that holds me back — in business, YouTube, and with my revenge bod — is staying consistent.

Since coming to Asia, I’ve been easing back into yoga, BJJ, lifting, red light therapy, and bodywork.

And it feels great… when I stick with it.

But living out of a suitcase makes it harder. Especially during those 12 Week Year sprints, my nervous system gets fried.

By the end of the day, I’m a dopamine fiend. It could be worse seeking out escorts, drugs, or alcohol — but IMO I needed something to have me feel in control again.

That’s why I started 75 Hard.

The more I do it, the more I realize — it’s not about the 10 pages or the gallon of water. It’s about the kind of person you become while doing it and showing up unconditionally.

Ngl — I’ve restarted the challenge a few times so I’m not perfect.

But I’ve never felt this strong or this clear.

So even when I “fail,” I remind myself — you’re just recalibrating your nervous system to a higher standard of being.

I know… kinda woo-woo-ey.

But when I look back, 37 y/o me would absolutely destroy 20-year-old me in a fight. And that’s something to be proud of LOL.

3. I started 3 new secret YouTube channels 🤫

Living in Asia made me slow down and ask a big question — what kind of life do I actually want?

I just finished reading It Doesn’t Have to Be Crazy at Work and studying Human Design for Business (I’m a Projector btw 💫).

I needed to be honest with myself — my YouTube channel isn’t working.

After 3 years of forcing uploads, I finally admitted it — the channel wasn’t working, and I wasn’t having fun anymore.

I realized most people don’t care about your life story — unless they’re your friends (and even then… some still don’t LOL).

At the same time, I started stepping away from high-ticket sales too.

I still love the game — building offers, writing scripts, running calls for creators. But I’m over rearranging my life around back-to-back sales calls.

Truth is, I work better as a Head of Sales than a closer.

I spent years trying to prove myself — through pharmacy, through sales, through YouTube.

But none of it made me happy and was left wondering — what the fck is all of this for?*

If everyone I know dies in three generations, why do I care so much about living the way others want me to live who won’t even remember me?

They don’t live with my decisions. I do.

So I started building my life around things I actually enjoy.

I focus on 1–3 priorities a day.

I rest. I train BJJ. I lift. I stretch.

I take walks. I even go out to hip hop clubs blasting Playboi Carti 😂

And quietly, I started my next chapter.

For me, that’s YouTube.

I started 3 new YouTube channels:

  • An unhinged business podcast
  • A channel reviewing creator tools
  • A high-ticket sales channel for creators

I told myself — If I built it once, I can do it again — smarter and faster.

And guess what?

One channel is already growing and making money 🤑

I don’t care about going viral anymore.

I just want to build something fun and sustainable.

I don’t know when I’ll “quit” everything.

All I know is when I build my days around creating — not chasing deals — that feels right.

What’s next 👀

If you can’t tell, moving to Asia was the best decision I made.

So far, I’ve scripted 24+ new videos.

I’m spending time with my old college friends in Japan on a random weekday and made friends all over Asia… all while quietly building a stronger backend team.

And I’m getting ready to relaunch the YouTube Mastermind — possibly for the last time I offer 1-on-1 coaching.

My new YouTube channels are getting some momentum too.\

I’m learning to just be.

I’m learning to embody the “with or without you” energy (kinda like big dick energy lol).

I’m more intentional the people I let in my life, my goals, the energy, and the person I’m being day to day.

Even in the morning, I’m way more intentional about the people I let in.

I’ve completely cut out or cut down the complainers in my life along with getting rid of the brain rot of my life.

Aside from folks like Vanessa Lau, Dan Koe, and the Hormozis… it’s mostly following people I aspire to be,.

…okay along with some Jason the Ween rizz content because your boy needs to start his family arc soon.

This next chapter is about building aligned businesses — not just “successful” ones.

Speaking about business, I have a few launches coming up.

If you’re interested, links are below.

What’s next 👀

Thanks for reading this far. Seriously, it means a lot.

If it’s not obvious by now… moving to Asia was the best decision I’ve made in a while lol.

This next chapter is all about building something sustainable.

Not just “successful,” but actually aligned with how I want to live.

And speaking of business. A few big things are launching soon.

If you’ve been thinking about working together, now’s probably the best time to apply:

Anyways — what do you think about updates like this?

Should I send more personal, honest ones like this?

You can just hit reply. I’d love to hear from you.

Sending good energy from Saigon.

– Kevin

P.S. If you’ve been thinking about working together — this is the time.

Applications for both the YouTube Mastermind and High Ticket Sales Accelerator are both open until 7/1 and I’m not sure when I’ll open them again.

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