REAL YOLO: The creation of cocktimus prime.
“DUUUUU MAAAAAA! FUCKING SHIT”
Those were my words as a needle was going through my penis. You read right. I pierced my penis. People think I’m crazy for going through the pain. It’s been about two months and it still hurts.
Probably because I keep on snagging my barbell on my jeans NUMEROUS times. Believe it or not, there was a time when I wouldn’t even consider getting any piercings. I wasn’t always this crazy.
Let’s rewind 4 years ago. I’ve always been attracted to piercings, even though I’ve never had any. My girlfriend and I were lying in bed… then the piercing agreement came up. If I pierced my penis, she would get a tongue ring.
Win-win situation right?
Except I was NEVER serious about getting one. Fuck. Why would I ever do that?
Four months later my girlfriend broke up with me. My world came crashing down. Although I was emotionally traumatized, I wanted to live a more spontaneous lifestyle.
Getting a penis piercing would represent the NEW person I wanted to be… an alpha personality, who didn’t let their fears control them. No lie, some of it was out of spite. I always joked about getting it… up until now.
So what happened? I kept on pushing it back. Every time I was about to do it, I made an excuse.
Do any of these excuses sound familiar?
“It’s too much money”
“I’ll do it when the time is right”
“I’m too busy… I don’t have enough time”
“Logically, it doesn’t make sense… Why would I do this?”
Honestly, I could have picked up an extra shift at the pharmacy or give up porn for a day. That’s when I realized that money and time were just SURFACE level barriers. My actual fear was tainting my self image.
At the time, I never had any piercings or tattoos. I’ve never drank alcohol or snorted cocaine. Things like that would ruin my image…or so I thought. I was SCARED of what people would think of me.
Although my fears had the best intentions, it was draining mentally. I spent 4 years battling and contemplating about my penis piercing. My indecisiveness costed me time and piece of mind.
Think about it, it was JUST a piercing. I should of gotten it done and moved on. My fear of judgement was holding me back from enjoying life to its fullest potential. Fuck… That was hours of porn I missed out on.
The right time is NOW, not later
Instead of just thinking about the consequences, look at what you’re missing out from doing NOTHING.
Even though my penis was bleeding like a fountain, I still felt a sigh of relief. I didn’t have to worry anymore. The voices in my head were gone.
In the future, I’ll talk about HOW I got over my fear, but I wanted to ask you guys a few questions. What is one thing that has been on your mind for years that you haven’t done? What are you missing out on from doing nothing? What is your real reason for not doing it?
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Kevin
I can really relate to this post. I’ve always been more passive but I am trying to learn how to be more of an alpha personality. Heck, even my girl just broke up with me 4 days ago. Things that have been on my mind for years have been getting my personal trainer certification, getting in amazing physical shape. and finding a career that I enjoy which also earns good money. I feel like I am missing out on my future by not pursuing it hard enough, kind of feel stuck in limbo right now with my current earnings. I think my biggest obstacles are feeling tired all of the time and fear of failing.
Hey Eric,
Sorry to hear about the whole breakup thing. It’s always a tough thing to deal with, but sometimes breakups are a GREAT mental reset. I can tell from the way you write you’re a hard worker and suffer from the same thing I do… we feel guilty for not working. One important thing I try to remind myself is that we have our WHOLE lives ahead of us. We’re not lazy people and we just need to trust in ourselves that we will get things done.
Kevin
Damn.! Your a badass
Haha thanks! It’s definitely one of the more crazier things that I’ve done in life. #realyolo
Partially, it’s my fear of what society thinks, and what my mom would say if I got a tattoo. It’s so taboo in my family, and you know the typical lecture about: “what are you, a gangster?!” Along with probably being slapped so hard I’d see my ancestors. I want a tattoo to remind myself to try harder to pursue my dreams. And hey, I like the look of one or two. I’m not a sleeves person, and I’m sure I don’t have to be.
According to my mom, she says she supports my idea of a career. I have a pretty good idea of what I do, each time I do it. But she still doesn’t seem to trust my actions. I know that I’m one to say, and not do…But there are some things, I have a knack for and when I do it, it goes smoothly. I don’t know what I’m doing sometimes, but that’s life. I want to figure things out myself sometimes. I sometimes don’t know what holds me back on some things. Maybe it’s a paranoia or the fear of failure.
I think you nailed it right on the head. It’s life and you never know what might happen. By figuring things out, we HAVE to make mistakes. I can’t blame how you feel sometimes… we’re conditioned through school to ALWAYS know the right answer… or know what exactly we’re doing. Too bad it’s not so straight forward 🙂
About the tattoo, there’s nothing wrong with it. In fact it’s part of the norm. Your parents and family are just worried for you because they’re from that old school mentality. They don’t want you to do something that you regret and “fuck up your life”. It’s understandable. Although they try to look out for your best interests, I think it’s important to do what’s best for you.
I think it’s a great idea to get a tattoo as a reminder. Maybe you’re family will be understanding enough to see your intent behind your tattoo. Anyways its a great motivator. Think about it. Rick Ross tattooed “Rich Forever” on his chin. You can’t go back and its a go for broke mentality.
Just remember at the end of the day, you’re not killing anyone or hurting anyone. What’s the worst that can happen?
Two things have been on my mind and I haven’t done either of them. The first would be a tattoo, which isn’t gonna happen as I already disappointed my parents more than enough, getting a tattoo would be the last nail on the coffin. The second is what I think about the most, which is to have a night alone/party. To get really drunk, eat poutine and watch movies. Which would have to wait a few years.
Really enjoyed this post as I could relate some to it. Growing up, I didn’t like piercings mostly because as a child, my mom would talk about any piercing beyond the ear was insane. As I got older, I became more curious about them. Of course, I asked myself “why would anyone get their privates pierced?!” Growing up, I lived a square life, missed out on many things as I was bullied all through school. Also was very shy, nervous, etc. After a series of events and some truths came to light, I decided I wasn’t going to be that person anymore. I was going to live my life, try new things, meet people, and do something spontaneous once in a while. As I had become more curious about piercings, the thought of a dick piercing came to mind but I would shrug it off. Up until last year, I thought about it even more up until one weekend, I was out of town and had the privacy, money, and within range of a piercing-only studio. This was it- no more excuses. It felt like a very bitchin’ pinch and yes, there was alot of blood off and on the first 12 hours but the experience of having it done made me feel like I had become a man or something. Made me feel like I did something my haters could never bring themselves to do. It felt amazing. It was a departure from my old self, a proud moment in my life. My penis would feel irritated for the duration of the healing process but after four months, a local piercer helped me stretch it up and switched to a horseshoe which feels much more comfortable.
Thanks again for sharing your experience! It’s always awesome to see someone who had the same thing done for reasons beyond sexual xD not that that’s a bad thing but I’m sure people wouldn’t guess that getting your dick pierced can carry a deep meaning.